Molly, Molly, Molly, This past week we celebrated your 5th birthday. These have been the wildest, most chaotic, unexpected, heart wrenching, and above all else, incredibly beautiful, five years, of my life! There is so much that I want to remember about you, and this sacred time that we have shared together. Just you and […]Read More An Open Letter to My Girl on her Fifth Birthday
Listen up everyone, I’ve been thinking, and feeling, and keeping quiet about this for a while now, but I just can’t anymore… This pandemic is painful. It’s grief, in stagnant motion. In the best of circumstances it is the death of the world as we once knew it; while we are safe, and fed, and […]Read More It Feels Like a Sunday.
I think my dad is dead.” I knew this storm was coming, but for some reason that doesn’t soften the blow. Her words break me wide open, like when thunder first strikes the sky. The vibration of all of this lingers within me. I intentionally breathe in, and then out. In some ways this […]Read More “I think my dad is dead.”
Ughhhhh. Dating is hard. No matter how you slice, dice, or serve it… Right? Am I wrong!? ***If you disagree pleeeeease tell me more!*** I’m not sure I’ve ever been thrilled to date. I’m one of those women. One of them that “feels too deeply,” and usually “too fast.” I have two speeds; zero or […]Read More Molly, Julio, and I down by the Eastern Trail
5/20/19 Molly, Molly, Molly, Last night at 8pm I tucked you into bed. The blue eyed, bold, brave, beautiful, and three year old version of you… I read to you that story… the one about the mom who had a son; that kept on growing up!!! I softly rubbed your cheek with my thumb, as […]Read More That face you make when Anna shows up at your party…
Dear “Me,” What is it that you would have me “give up already?” My heartache? My authenticity? Does my sharing bother you? Is my voice annoying? This must all be REALLY hard for you… The way I “rehash” and work to make sense of my life, using a public platform; like social media. “Ughhh! Here […]Read More “Give it up already… Move on For Cripes Sakes.”
It’s interesting how natural it is for us to attach meaning to specific dates, on an annual basis. Often times these days are adorned with milestones; wedding dresses, birthday cakes, graduations, and other momentous occasions… They are days to be celebrated! However, sometimes the days we viscerally remember most, are not decorated for us quite […]Read More I Never Meant to Remember Today Forever
Last week I woke up one night and couldn’t get back to sleep. The dog wouldn’t stop scratching at my bed, like he wanted to snuggle under my sheets… Yet, as soon as I reached for him he would run away! Pretty annoying; especially at two am. I softly cursed at him. How dare he […]Read More The dog, the body, the soul; remember.
Days, moments, breath, life; becomes increasingly special when you begin to take into account, that none of it is guaranteed. When death, loss, or scarcity strike, it can be uncomfortable and painful; but what else do you notice? Arguably, nothing; you are consumed by your emotions. Can you recall a time in your life when […]Read More The Deep End
“Forgiveness is for you, not the other person.” “Forgiveness will set you free.” “With forgiveness comes peace.” “You must forgive others in order to heal.” These quotes, thoughts, and ideas are so compelling… Compelling and incredibly annoying, if you ask me. Me, somebody searching for the elusive “light switch” labeled forgiveness… I want to continue […]Read More The Road Called Forgiveness